Archive for March, 2009

Oops.


An interesting thing happened tonight. While at the poker table, a gentleman who’s good friends with my father & I, grabbed my card holder and asked what it was.
My 30 days, A.A. chip.
Your what?
A.A., Alcoholics Anonymous.
What?! You’re an alcoholic.?
Never really sharing it so openly in real life, I didn’t look him in the eyes and [...]


It’s scary, in a good way, when you can go somewhere for 10 hours & not even know it.
$5 in the tournament (33 people) & I finished 6th, no money. I turned around and played the cash game ($50 buy-in) for 5 hours and walked away with $25 profit. I was up $100, but didn’t [...]



Volchaos

29Mar09

Even nature’s destruction is beautiful.


I’m following SuperSober (hate the name though) on Twitter & they posted a good quote today.
I may not always do the right thing, but at least today, I can usually tell the difference.


Insomnia is the mother of the absurd. I use to spray paint 15 foot sheets of plastic, program mock websites (buyyourowndamntampons.com), or make constellations out of silver coins on the 15 foot walls of my apartment. Tonight, I carefully disassembled a pack of Camel No. 9’s.
Whatever it takes to pass the time…


aa, vii

29Mar09

I ended up going to a meeting tonight when I couldn’t afford to play at the $30, no-rebuy, tournament tonight. That was a completely unrelated statement, I just hate missing no-rebuy tournaments and I’m still a bit bitter about it
At the meeting my friend shared a story about this past week, how he [...]


Footwork

27Mar09

Fancy.


Temptations

27Mar09

In the 31 days, I’ve had plenty of opportunities to stumble. Each was a moment that I said, “Fuck you,” to alcohol, instead of, “Fuck it.”
During my first week of sobriety there was a bottle of wine & a half-gallon of Long Island Ice Tea that would have been easy to drink from, while making [...]


Now

27Mar09

“The present is the singularity where personal potential turns into memories.“
-M. Wade Nichols


na, vi

26Mar09

30 days, alcohol & pills.

Changes I’ve noticed.

I don’t wake up shaking any more.
My memory is a lot better.
I’m thinking more clearly.
I enjoy the little things again.
I’m testing my blood sugar (diabetes) 4 times a day, instead of 10 to 20.
I’m getting more things done.


From A Softer World.



Wow. Wow. Wow.


Julie was looking for the David After Dentist video, that depicts a young boy after being doped up for dental work, when she found this remix…

Love it.


This is a very geeky, but great, video on the benefits of fungi.
Mycologist Paul Stamets lists 6 ways the mycelium fungus can help save the universe: cleaning polluted soil, making insecticides, treating smallpox and even flu…

A delicate dance between dinner and death.

The mycelium is consumed by the ants. They become mummified and BOING, a mushroom [...]


Warmth

24Mar09

aa, v

24Mar09

Fifth meeting. I ended up sharing the life approach that Chaz wrote about in Winning at Loser’s Games.
I seek to win Loser’s Games by simply not showing up.
-Chaz
Quotes from tonight were as follows…
I’ve got to carry the message, not the mess.
I had a hard time during my recovery when family members accused me of drinking, [...]


I bought a Miller Sharp’s today (non-alcoholic) to go with my sandwich and as I walked out of the grocery store, I wondered, “What would people at A.A. think?” Not that it’d affect my personal opinion on it, but I wondered about their take on it. I don’t think I’d ever bring up the topic [...]


I received an email with 62 photos for a video project I’m working on. Instead of the images being an attachment, I got them as inline images. There’s not a button or an obvious option to get all the inline images, so you have to right-click each one and save them individually. That’s just way [...]


A friend and I were talking about how it was weird to see each other online during the daytime. We’ve been chatting during the wee hours of the morning because we’re both nocturnal like that. So when he signed off today and said, “The early bird gets the worm,” I had to counter with something [...]



Table for 1

23Mar09

I added The Catmonsters to my comics links on the righ-side menu (scroll up/down if you don’t see them). I’ve been updating and adding a lot to those sections (blogs, comics, entertainment) lately. Make sure to check them out.



aa, iv

23Mar09

I went to my fourth meeting Sunday night. On the way there I told the friend that I go with, “It’s been a week now and I’ve missed a total of 3 days. Missing one day, I’m fine. Two days in a row though, feels like too long. Not that I start craving a drink [...]


I found this picture of a gorilla fighting a Newfoundland dog. Wow, they’re aggressive creatures.


No no no

22Mar09

I don’t mind her telling me no, as long as she’s cute when doing it.


Bumper Wisdom

22Mar09

During our outing today, we were behind a truck with some bumper stickers that made us laugh. Keep in mind, we’re in the heart of the Bible belt, where the idiocy of Glen Beck & Rush Limbaugh are praised, so not only are such bumper stickers appreciated, they give us hope


Jules and I visited the library today. I got a few books and found a documentary called, “World’s Most Dangerous Drug” about Meth in the United States. While it covers the ins and outs of the drug, the movie also weaves the story of a couple (Michael & Janelle) into it that is just sad. [...]