Thank you…
Dyanna for the conversations between errands
Bethany for the home to cook dinner in
Tia & John for the game night
Justin for the friendship we once had, that lasts
Dad for the effort
Joe & Jamie for the change of scenery and company
Mom for the phone calls
Penny for making me feel useful
Casey & Kailey for the remote conversations
Katie [...]

“A picture is worth a thousand words and infinite emotions.“

I originally wrote this as a comment, but wanted to make it more visible.
I keep reflecting on the night.
My manhood & maturity, kept being called into question. I took the grabs & pushes with my arms outstretched. I responded to the insults and attacks with diffusing words, repeating, “Don’t worry, we’re leaving. We’re leaving.” [...]

“I told her what she wanted to hear, even though it killed me.“

I’ll walk til I crawl
Crawl til I slither
Bleed my bowels
from the skin they wither
I’ll do all these things
of the storm you weather
A cloud among night
Your iridescent feather
If a sun, the morn does mother
I’ll gather myself & reconsider

I’ve got marks on my body, that I’m not sure where they came from. I’ve got scars on the heart that I’m wearing for the “love” you give my loved ones. I’ve got a thousand words for your two ears, the math & your ignorance makes it impossible to speak. I’ve got people in my [...]

how many times have you told me shh? how many times have i heard, but listened to my heart instead?
i can’t stop.
every second you remain is every reassurance i need.
i could leave or toy with the words, both giving me what i need. i’m never far away, but my lungs are full and spilling.
you sip [...]

[From April 2005]
My official response to all of this is that it’s fuckin bullshit. You know, for the record and all.
As far as I’m concerned, that was between her and I. And from the recent past, she should know that I do respect her wishes and try to accommodate her demands- whether I feel they’re [...]

Mill Springs in Kentucky

For new readers, here are links to previous wedding posts.
1. Infinity & 8
2. 4th Year Anniversary
3. Dress & Ring
4. Proposal Past PM

A friend called me around 1:30am the other night, crying & shaking. She asked what a panic attack felt like. We continued to talk for a good 30 minutes, but after we hung up I began to think about how misunderstood the disorder is. So, I wanted to write about the past seven years of [...]

FightingWindmills tagged me, as one of their newer acquaintances, with the Favorite Posts Meme which offers a second chance to older, perhaps forgotten posts.
Rules: Go back through your archives and post the links to your five favorite blog posts that you’ve written.
Link One must be about family.
Link Two must be about friends.
Link Three must be [...]

“Oh Yes” by Charles Bukowski
there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it’s too late
and there’s nothing worse
than
too late.

“I never felt free until you possessed me.“

I felt like something beautiful.