Posts Tagged ‘Family’

“I’m the one who died from the safety net and the one who never wanted it.“
-M. Wade Nichols


It all started with a stupid commercial, around midnight tonight, from Total cereal. It boasted how their product is more healthier than the new kid on the block, Kashi. Really? With such a gauntlet thrown (and insomnia in full affect), I decided to go see for myself.
Sure enough, Total kicks my cereal’s (Frosted Mini-Wheats) a- [...]


I’ve just been in that mood lately. Love, friendships, life, etc… Playing by Heart is one of those films that do it for me.

Click “Play All” to watch the whole movie.
“I have a friend, a jazz musician, trumpet player. Really terrific. And I go and hear him jam every month or so. [...]


“I got rid of it when I found things worth dying for.“
-M. Wade Nichols


The marks are my own
Inflicted & sustained
A song once sang
faced with nothing, I want pain.
I feel so much
deeper than skin
I protect what’s within
by keeping you, at end.
Do you want me?
Obligation or something more?
I’ll assume what your efforts are for
as long as you never lose sight of my core.


I’m doing something right- least my version & potential of right at the time. I use to think I could adapt to everyone, but I’ve found that not everyone can adapt to me.
Thank you to Julie, Allen, Maureen, Jessica, Susie, Brenden, Rex, Gerald, Shrek, Donna, Jack, Tabbie, Crystal Anne, Barrett, Dapa, Angel, Mom, Joe, Sheena, [...]


Sometimes, I hope I die an early death of brain cancer, so you know I was never lying. I hope you read the list in my cold, dead hand and see your name on it- who I didn’t want in my life and who I don’t want at my funeral.
This is my reverse eulogy.
I hope [...]


Against abortion or morning after pill if a 15 year old was raped by her father?
WTF.


It Clicked

18Sep08

This week it clicked.
Now that I’m on the proper meds and doing good, I can’t responsibly handle the amount of alcohol that I used to be able to when I wasn’t on anything. I guess that warning on the bottle is true.
Apologies to those offended in the recent past. Changes have been made.


Field Trip

22Aug08

To celebrate Dad & Bethany’s (and Kailey’s ) birthday we went to The Newport Aqaurium near Cincinnati, OH.

The lifecycle of a seaturtle. I stood there for 100 years to get this picture. Borrrrring.

UPDATE: Me laughing at Julie for working instead of joining us.


Who We Are

19Aug08

I think Jesus had it right. Don’t tell people who & what you are, let them decide what you are to them. Actions don’t always align with words, so we must humble ourselves to outside opinions.
As for me, I have the respect of my parents, for the honor I’ve shown them over the years. To [...]


I’ve been updating wedding details over at http://www.MrAndMrsNichols.com – eventually it’ll turn into a couple’s blog or something of the sort.


Rearranged

13Aug08

Just think about it
Lately I’ve been skeptical
silent when I would used to speak
Distant from all around me
who witness me fail and become weak
Life is overwhelming
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
I’d love to be the one to disappoint you when I don’t fall down
But you don’t understand when I’m attempting to explain
because you know [...]


Who I am, how I am, regarding my personality, is defined. Very defined.
I’ve changed slightly over my 29 years, but the core of me has remained true. I’m sick & I’m tired of playing a role. We all have roles, but they should be ones that we want and choose, not ones we’re given.
The [...]


My grandfather has been back and forth to the hospital for the past month now. He’s not doing too well. Doctors are predicting the worse. This situation reminded me of something I wrote about my grandfather 2 years ago when he had a heart attack. This is it…
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”Vincent Phiscalla writes a story about his grandmother dying [...]



I finally got to see Jamie’s book. A published author, brought into our family, through marriage. Bravo Joe, bravo. Way to cast your testosterone net and pull in a winner.
However, that’s all the credit he gets.
After reading her Getting Published post, her success wasn’t by luck.
All the contours of his faults & fa-ya-ya’s are beautifully [...]


Me, coming back from the mom & pop convenient store, after charging it to my father’s account.
It’s like a having a “people credit card.”
Little Joey, after sticking a piece of cauliflower the size of his face, into his mouth.
Mmmm…. *cough, cough*
Miss Honeychurch’s gChat message.
I knew that level of “connection” between an uncle & niece [...]


To Those

01Mar08

Thank you…
Dyanna for the conversations between errands
Bethany for the home to cook dinner in
Tia & John for the game night
Justin for the friendship we once had, that lasts
Dad for the effort
Joe & Jamie for the change of scenery and company
Mom for the phone calls
Penny for making me feel useful
Casey & Kailey for the remote conversations
Katie [...]


Any readers remember the Friend’s Board I made to keep track of when I interacted with friends and family members so that life didn’t drown my good intentions to keep in touch with loved ones?
Well, this is kind of like version 2.0. There are a lot of friends and family members where we’re moving and [...]


Julie with an ironic choice of words.
“Diapers cost a shitload!”
The first words I heard before being ripped from the couch.
“GET UP!”
One of many toasts during our double date on Valentine’s Day.
To my past love & future wife.
Joe, my brother, telling of his urgency to make a trip to Florida regarding our move.
“No, I’m getting down [...]


The End.

11Feb08

I’ve got marks on my body, that I’m not sure where they came from. I’ve got scars on the heart that I’m wearing for the “love” you give my loved ones. I’ve got a thousand words for your two ears, the math & your ignorance makes it impossible to speak. I’ve got people in my [...]


Me talking to Tony about problems a client is having with a DVD.
ME: I couldn’t believe it didn’t work for him.
TONY: Are you using garbage DVDs? lol
ME: I’M USING WHAT I CAN AFFORD! CDs with DVD written on them using a Sharpie
A friend talking about her medical problems, that I could relate all to well [...]


Anxiet(me)

05Feb08

A friend called me around 1:30am the other night, crying & shaking. She asked what a panic attack felt like. We continued to talk for a good 30 minutes, but after we hung up I began to think about how misunderstood the disorder is. So, I wanted to write about the past seven years of [...]


I just left the dinner table where I listened to two of my nieces go back and forth like neurotic squirrels. One is 13, the other is 11 and they share many interests & circle of friends. I watched my third niece (13) sit quietly and roll her eyes on occasion at some of the [...]


Allison, of That’s What She Blogged fame, has a great list entitled 10 Random Facts (go read it… after you read mine ) It’s inspired me to make such a list of my quirks & experiences.
Here we go, in no particular order (OMG, A RANDOMLY ORDERED LIST OF RANDOM DETAILS, NUMBERED AS A [...]


Alison (11), my niece, when asked if she and her sister (13) could drive the car if I passed out.
We could figure it out. The skinny one makes it go and the fat one stops it.
Alison (11), my niece, during an after school chat in the car.
It’s so fun to ruin the lives of little [...]


I was looking through Craigslist free ads and came across one with this title,
“For those lonely around the holidays.“
The ad made me smile, so I thought I’d share.
When I was young and growing up it was just my mom and I and sometimes very little to no family around at all. I found a lot [...]