Posts Tagged ‘my life’
Updates for May
Until I get a job, or Allen teaches me how to hack my cable box, the updates will be few and far between.
My court date is set for May 11th. I met with my public defender this week and she was more optimistic than last time. Due to the circumstances she hopes to get my [...]
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Mistaken Addiction
An interesting thing happened tonight. While at the poker table, a gentleman who’s good friends with my father & I, grabbed my card holder and asked what it was.
My 30 days, A.A. chip.
Your what?
A.A., Alcoholics Anonymous.
What?! You’re an alcoholic.?
ever really sharing it so openly in real life, I didn’t look him in the eyes and [...]
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My First Cash Game
It’s scary, in a good way, when you can go somewhere for 10 hours & not even know it.
$5 in the tournament (33 people) & I finished 6th, no money. I turned around and played the cash game ($50 buy-in) for 5 hours and walked away with $25 profit. I was up $100, but didn’t [...]
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The Anatomy of a Camel
Insomnia is the mother of the absurd. I use to spray paint 15 foot sheets of plastic, program mock websites (buyyourowndamntampons.com), or make constellations out of silver coins on the 15 foot walls of my apartment. Tonight, I carefully disassembled a pack of Camel No. 9’s.
Whatever it takes to pass the time…
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aa, vii
I ended up going to a meeting tonight when I couldn’t afford to play at the $30, no-rebuy, tournament tonight. That was a completely unrelated statement, I just hate missing no-rebuy tournaments and I’m still a bit bitter about it
At the meeting my friend shared a story about this past week, how he [...]
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Temptations
In the 31 days, I’ve had plenty of opportunities to stumble. Each was a moment that I said, “Fuck you,” to alcohol, instead of, “Fuck it.”
During my first week of sobriety there was a bottle of wine & a half-gallon of Long Island Ice Tea that would have been easy to drink from, while making [...]
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Now
“The present is the singularity where personal potential turns into memories.“
-M. Wade Nichols
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na, vi
30 days, alcohol & pills.
Changes I’ve noticed.
I don’t wake up shaking any more.
My memory is a lot better.
I’m thinking more clearly.
I enjoy the little things again.
I’m testing my blood sugar (diabetes) 4 times a day, instead of 10 to 20.
I’m getting more things done.
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aa, v
Fifth meeting. I ended up sharing the life approach that Chaz wrote about in Winning at Loser’s Games.
I seek to win Loser’s Games by simply not showing up.
-Chaz
Quotes from tonight were as follows…
I’ve got to carry the message, not the mess.
I had a hard time during my recovery when family members accused me of drinking, [...]
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A Question for A.A. Members
I bought a Miller Sharp’s today (non-alcoholic) to go with my sandwich and as I walked out of the grocery store, I wondered, “What would people at A.A. think?” Not that it’d affect my personal opinion on it, but I wondered about their take on it. I don’t think I’d ever bring up the topic [...]
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aa, iv
I went to my fourth meeting Sunday night. On the way there I told the friend that I go with, “It’s been a week now and I’ve missed a total of 3 days. Missing one day, I’m fine. Two days in a row though, feels like too long. Not that I start craving a drink [...]
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No no no
I don’t mind her telling me no, as long as she’s cute when doing it.
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na, iii
Three meetings in five days. This time it was a N.A. meeting, which includes drugs and alcohol. Since I was also on prescribed drugs, it makes more sense for me to attend those, though both types of meetings have been great. Unlike my A.A. meetings, I actually shared at this one. My words rushed and [...]
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aa, ii
I went to my second meeting tonight and dammit to hell if I’m not on the brink of crying each time. A guy, tattooed to the neck, rough all around, spoke like some sort of vagabondic vangelist. To be surprised like that really changes how you look at people. It’s like being blindsided on some [...]
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aa
I went to my first AA meeting tonight. It wasn’t court ordered or anything, I guess I was just curious and wanted to add more action to the changes I’ve made.
After going, I really got how true the narrator’s voice in Fight Club was. The honesty, the listening, the therapeutic affects of sharing in groups [...]
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Forced Esteem
I came across an old e-mail from a girl friend of mine and sent her the following message.
So I did a search for “puppies” in my email to find photos of my mom’s new dogs and I came across this email (with photos) from you.
Just thought I’d let you know, you’re beautiful. Don’t let anyone [...]
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Tags: Conversations, emotions, life, love, low self esteem, marriage, Me, men, my life, People, Relationships, self esteem, wives, women
Snowdate: 03.13.09
I should have taken a photo of it this morning, before it melted.
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Back to Work
Oh, editing & programming on dual monitors, how I’ve missed you.
And here is the video from the picture above. It was one of my earlier projects.
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Tags: cold fusion, computer programming, editing, final cut, final cut pro, Geek, life, Me, my life, my work, programming, video editing, Work
A Colorful Life
“I wish I could see in black & white or think in shades of grey, but I rage with red, cry in blue & know 59 others by name.“
-M. Wade Nichols
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March’s Court Date
Yesterday didn’t achieve what I wanted. No I didn’t get any more jail time, house-arrest and/or fines (for now). Yes, my ankle bracelet was removed and we have another two months to continue working on my defense. I know those two things seem great (and they are), but having all this linger is killing me.
Anyway, [...]
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Mish Mash
Quotes from 2am
Frank Lloyd Wright, “Tip the world over on its side and everything loose will land in Los Angeles.”
Ann Landers, “Television has proved that people will look at anything rather than each other.”
Russell Baker, ”People seem to enjoy things more when they know a lot of other people have been left out of the pleasure.”
Saki, “The young [...]
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New Wedding Photos
My grandmother recently sent us some pictures she took from our wedding.
There are more on my MySpace profile.
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Never Ending Climb
There is something immensely depressing about two people working 40 hour jobs and not making a living.
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Tags: depression, life, love, Me, my life, People, Relationships
New Beginnings
I’m almost two months into my new job and I couldn’t care less if I get fired. Yes, I want it, but I’ve gotten more than I originally imagined. Those who know me, know I’m more about people than I am about anything else.
Over the past 6 weeks, I have made friendships and see potential [...]
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STATUS: ||||||||||____ 57%
I should be back online soon. Until then, a little humor from work today.
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I CAN HAS JOB?
Yes I can.
January 5th, 2009 I’ll start work at Presidium. The job will make use of my technical skill set, something I wasn’t doing working for my dad & his pest control company.
Ironically enough, after making “one of the top two scores she’s seen on the tests,” the girl who interviewed me was someone I [...]
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Deceptive Tears
“I have to laugh at my situation to keep from crying.“
-M. Wade Nichols
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TV Observation
I just have to say, out of frustration from watching too much TV, that sexuality is in the face.
So many women out there have wonderful (or decent) bodies that are ruined with empty eyes and generic smiles. There are far more attractive bodies out there than there are those that can level you with a [...]
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Handguns & Loved Ones
“I got rid of it when I found things worth dying for.“
-M. Wade Nichols
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Tags: death, families, Family, gun, guns, handgun, handguns, homicide, life, Me, murder, my life, my writing, My Writings, People, philosophy, writing, writings
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